Used To Be

        "You're not who you used to be.", someone told me in the past year or so, when talking about jobs and the possibility of going back to what I used to do (general labor; mostly factory work). General labor isn't bad, but the old me once thought that was all I could do for income (or in general. No pun intended); that's who I used to be. I'm not who I used to be keeps echoing in my thoughts lately. Who exactly am I now then, besides aged? 

           I'm one who isn't perfect, doesn't have a wide array of skills, but has more experience. I am one who is willing to try differently, step out boldly. I am the one who can talk with people better than I used to (not perfectly, but less self-consciously). I am one who can empathize, pray for (and with) people, and create different ways to make better impact and better income in better ways. I'm not who I used to be. I can't (and shouldn't) be doing everything the same. Aside from following Jesus, loving my wife and our son, and seeking to make Jesus known through this life given, I am not who I used to be; and this life wasn't meant to be lived in that way of "just enough" . 

            I ask for the grace to live well as You lead me Jesus, as I seek to lead my family and live for You. In Your name I pray Jesus. Amen. 

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